its been so hot, felt like 90 yesterday, its hard to go hiking when its so hot. Its just about 5pm, before today's 4+ laps around the Park, and I am flogging myself todothis everyday. I canceled the Tarptent Notch order today. I cant pretend to be AT manimal if walking a lousy 4-10 laps for 3-4 hours wipes me out.
Wish I'd done the AT when I was 22. I had tons of time and I could've managed. I wasnt hypothyroid then. I hadnt had a damaging stroke yet. I was fit and energetic. I didn't have any family or job hold backs. But it hadnt occurred to me to do it. I wasn't in the mood to launch myself into the apparently lonely green world of the AT.
Instead I bummed around southern Europe for 4 months, aimlessly. Looking back on it I no longer see as that as worthwhile or significant though I certainly did at the time. Who is right- the 23 year old or the 58 year old? Both? Neither?
I see the AT as... a challenge...yet if psychologically I'm readier for the AT, physically I'm not able. I'm seriously old and unfit. I stopped lap swimming over a year ago, and I cant walk more than 2-4 hours ie 5-10 miles. My mind says 'its hot, bag it, go read, or take a nap!'
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